Amrita Joy Ananda Ma (aka Elena Diana)

it is 1am here in Cairo on Monday April 23rd. in California it is 4pm on Sunday the 22nd; i awoke about a half hour ago with Bruce and his memorial in my awareness. i reviewed the guide through after death and reminded him of all that is in it.

i has occurred to me that, as a professional psychic-channel, communion and communication with those who have passed over is a common-place experience for me, and i often forget that this is not so for most people. when i got the news of Bruce's death, i became acutely aware of him and his presence, and i remembered the last time i saw him. i remember having the thought that this may be the last time i will see him. since his death, mostly what i get when i am open to receiving what he has to communicate is that laughter of his.

i remember in particular one EI where he spent a lot of time in his van. his laughter (i think of it as a kind of spiritual chuckle; it seemed to me that he was likely laughing at the Great Cosmic Joke) emanated from the van seemingly non-stop. it was clearly what was coming up out of his contemplation, and i received it as such.

i am aware of being here, undergoing initiations that are transforming my consciousness, and i am aware of being there, with those who have gathered to honor Bruce. i am aware of my love for him, and of his for me. i am aware of his intention for Liberation, and support him in attaining that which comes at the end of desire.

in talking with some others i know who knew Bruce, it came as no surprise to me to note that forgiveness of things he did in his life does not come easily for some of us who knew him. i looked within to see if i had forgiven him for things that arose out of our intimate relationship, and i have. i remember my last dyad with Bruce and how open and clear the contact between us was; no leftover stuff from the past. it is my sense that forgiving Bruce is an act of support for his liberation. i know that forgiveness is really for the forgiver. my thought is that, just as we can get enlightened for someone else, so we can forgive for another. and i sense him asking for that forgiveness so he can release the past.

i am now aware of being with the gathering in spirit; i go now to sleep, anticipating the 5am wake-up call we are to receive in order to visit a sacred part of the pyramids (the details are to be a surprise for us) and exprience a potent transmission of the Sacred Mysteries. somehow what i am doing here has also to do with Bruce and my honoring of him and his path.

i know that Carl Wilson is attending the gathering, and has put forth the invitation for the EI community to join us in our land project in Hawaii. he has explained the connection with Bruce; the irony of the timing of Bruce's death is not lost on me. we intend to memorialize him in some way on that property as we develop it.

blessings and love,
Amrita Joy Ananda Ma
aka Elena Diana